I only write long entries when I'm upset

[dotinthesky]

I feel deflated and tired. I feel beaten down by still being in this job. I lie in bed at night and wonder why people have to work in areas that are not their passion, which don't help them grow.

Wouldn't it be great if everyone could work in what they most love? How utopic and infantile of me to wish that... Who would take care of the shit? Surely there must be someone out there into handling garbage. Polititians perhaps.

I've been feeling low ever since I came back from Canada. I re-visited my past life, my left-behind friends, and compared it to the life I have now... I'm much more lonely in London, and I don't go out as much as I did in Montreal. Even Kevin was feeling blue by the time our return date was close.

I'm going to the gym in 23 minutes, with Megan. Maybe the endorphins will help. And I've been looking for new work, something that will fill up my time. And I've been thinking about taking creative writing courses at night, so somebody's deadline can push me out of my imagination's swamp.

And I, and I, and I

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[dilvalicious.livejournal.com]

hope your gloomy mood picks back up soon *hug*

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[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

thank you!

*hugshugshugs*

The gym helped (45 minutes of cardio) and i've been munching on some Middle-Easter cookies left in the office's kitchen... so things are looking up.

;o)

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[dilvalicious.livejournal.com]

GOODY!

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[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

reading LJ always lifts my spirit as well!

[kurwa.livejournal.com]

Yes, working out cures my depression too.

But you know what else helps? Playing dress-up. It's so much fun. That's what you should do next time you're sad. I do it all the time. Trying on ridiculous looking clothes that you haven't worn in like, five years will make you laugh, and trying on really short skirts and tight shirts will make you feel sexy.

It's fun. Even when you're not depressed. In fact, I'm going to go do it right now!

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[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

i wish I had tons of old clothes... but I tend to give everything to charity after a few years (with the exception of t-shirts, which I keep, and underwear, which I throw away.)

Maybe I should do my toenails, put some blush on, that sort of thing.

[theoriginalme.livejournal.com]

they wouldnt call it work if it was fun..

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[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

but, you see, i believe there is work that is fun. Like being a singer in a band for example, or running a film studio, or being a parachute instructor, or a scuba dive instructor... man, there are tons of good jobs -- I just hate the office kind...

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[theoriginalme.livejournal.com]

but aftre a while they become routine and outine is boring.

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[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

if you are dealing with people on a daily baisis, it doesn't have to get boring (unless you work in a fast food joint...)

i guess what I need... what everyone needs... is a job that brings out a passion from within, that makes the person feel they can't possibly do anything else in life.

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[theoriginalme.livejournal.com]

that would be great

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

and we'll watch The Sims being played on TV and think it's a reality show...

somebody stop the planet, cause I want OUT!

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

are you superman? cause if you aren't... we are doomed.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

does your God slither around and have a forked tongue?

[ex-brighter-896.livejournal.com]

CHEER UP!

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[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

I DID!!!

I never stay down for long...