Tulku, Here We Come

[dotinthesky]

What is the simplest way to say that I am a Buddhist?

Please refrain from reading this with cynicism.

If you contaminated yourself, then passed on that disease to a loved on... well, I'm not going to blame you anymore. You are a victim too. And if you said something horrible, or I said something horrible, then I want you to know that I am sitting here now, alone, trying to find a way to dispel that negative energy and not let my emotions engage with what doesn't exist. If you found a cave and it was warm enough to live in, maybe you could invite me over some day.

Have you ever met a Buddhist guru? I wonder what they would say to me. All the fortune-tellers have taken my hands, or laid down the cards, and said wonderful things. But scary things too. I wish sometimes that someone would come along and shatter my ego. The Kirlian photograph I took many years ago showed my aura to be very white - the sign of a large ego.

Please destroy my ego. I think I can take it. Or I'll try to bounce it off, like a mirror in a fun house. Like one of the mirrors in the Hayward Gallery fuckingpieceof9poundswastedshitsundaysaturdaywasteddaycrapradio ok you get the point.

A woman was meditating in silence for days, in a retreat. She couldn't talk and slowly her other senses took over the space her mouth had left behind. She noticed the birds outside, their individual faces and the relationships they had with each other. I see this sometimes, but very briefly, and it never occured to me that it might be special. Nature, for some people, is a factory of battery chicken.

I might try to become a vegetarian again, like I was in Montreal. Cows are pretty. And chickens are cuddly.

Comments

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[i-am-scowling.livejournal.com]

"You take yourself too seriously," [don Juan] said slowly. "You are too damn important in your own mind."

Have you read Journey to Ixtlan? If not, then you really should. I think it would help you clear out the ego issue. Dropping the ego is definitely the hardest thing for us humans...I didn't realize it would be that difficult to stop putting importance on the self.


And come back to vegetarians! I could send you a PETA video that may convince you ;)

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[vilia64.livejournal.com]

You are the first person I have talked to in a long time who even knew what Tibetan Buddhism was! *sigh* (of relief) My father was a Rinpoche here in California (haha, an Italian Buddhist monk-) and most of my family was raised to be Buddhist. We a lot of friends in Buddhist circles and I've even had the honor of meeting His Holiness the Dalai Lama with my brother who's head of the San Francisco chapter of Bay Area Friends of Tibet. Haha- if you ever want to talk, let me know. :)

[violentlyhappy.livejournal.com]

Eu gostaria de ser budista tambem...Agora sou catolico por cause dos meus pais, mas nao sou praticante - nao acredito-o, mas acredito na vida para alem da morte...

Que livro voce tem lido? Vou a comprar-o! =o) Ja tenho um livro sobre o Dalai Lama se quiser ler-o.

[suede.livejournal.com]

Great you are going to be veggie again. :)
Well, or great that you think about it even in the case you wont do it at last.