Tulku, Here We Come

[dotinthesky]

What is the simplest way to say that I am a Buddhist?

Please refrain from reading this with cynicism.

If you contaminated yourself, then passed on that disease to a loved on... well, I'm not going to blame you anymore. You are a victim too. And if you said something horrible, or I said something horrible, then I want you to know that I am sitting here now, alone, trying to find a way to dispel that negative energy and not let my emotions engage with what doesn't exist. If you found a cave and it was warm enough to live in, maybe you could invite me over some day.

Have you ever met a Buddhist guru? I wonder what they would say to me. All the fortune-tellers have taken my hands, or laid down the cards, and said wonderful things. But scary things too. I wish sometimes that someone would come along and shatter my ego. The Kirlian photograph I took many years ago showed my aura to be very white - the sign of a large ego.

Please destroy my ego. I think I can take it. Or I'll try to bounce it off, like a mirror in a fun house. Like one of the mirrors in the Hayward Gallery fuckingpieceof9poundswastedshitsundaysaturdaywasteddaycrapradio ok you get the point.

A woman was meditating in silence for days, in a retreat. She couldn't talk and slowly her other senses took over the space her mouth had left behind. She noticed the birds outside, their individual faces and the relationships they had with each other. I see this sometimes, but very briefly, and it never occured to me that it might be special. Nature, for some people, is a factory of battery chicken.

I might try to become a vegetarian again, like I was in Montreal. Cows are pretty. And chickens are cuddly.

Comments

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

That is so great! I've fallen in love with the Tibetan form of Buddhism, so anything you can tell me about it would be awesome. Maybe write a post about your experiences? I'm impressed that you met the Dalai Lama. What did you talk about?

Also, what books can you recommend?

[vilia64.livejournal.com]

Well anything by the Dalai Lama, like "The Art of Happiness"- to be able to write books like he has about happiness, prosperity, and compassion is an enormous feat considering his country has been occupied by Chinese committing mass genocide and murdering Tibetan monks. For the most, he is a happy, an jovial man. He is very sweet and was very impressed by my brother's organization.

He said that sometimes it is the non-Tibetans that do more for the cause of his people. Because they can do more- my brother's wife's family escaped from Tibet after the occupation and like the Dalai Lama lived in India in exile. Haha, we also talked about old movies. He's a funny guy- if you've ever seen "Seven Years In Tibet", you'd see the story of the Dalai Lama and Heinrich Harrer who are still friends (Brad Pitt played Heinrich) also Kundun, and Little Buddha. Good films.

I have several titles on my bookshelf which I'll write down and email you- (I'm at work right now, hahaha)

This is the Bay Area Friends of Tibet website- http://friends-of-tibet.org/index.html Both my brother and his Tibetan wife help to run the organization. http://friends-of-tibet.org/contacts.html you can see my brother Giovanni and his wife Tsering in that picture.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

That's brilliant! Now I feel like you came to my LJ friends' list for a reason... this one!

here's my email: olliefern @ yahoo. co. uk

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[vilia64.livejournal.com]

:)

muah! xoxo

I'll send you lists- :)

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

thank you!