Cold Londrina Nights

[dotinthesky]

Life is quiet, lonely and fast in Londrina. Did I arrive yesterday? Or before yesterday? Time has blended everything together. The TV is on its last legs, the apartment is cold, and my only company is a tiny sausage dog who sleeps all day underneath blankets.

I've burned my retinas on the internet, but even this is becoming boring. Too much internet makes me want to delete this journal. I've been feeling lazy and restless. I wish my boyfriend were here.

I'm scanning photos of myself tomorrow. All ages. I'll be making a post very soon with one photo per year of my life, starting with a newborn one and going all the way to my big 30.

Comments

[pixxers.livejournal.com]

Coming home always makes me maudlin. >.> Even when I hate sleeping anyplace else.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

I love being home. But, this is the first time I've been in this apartment by myself. Usually my mom, brothers and grandmother are here, as well as the nurse that takes care of my younger brother. There's always someone watching TV, someone in the kitchen, the phone ringing... things that I had no idea I would miss!

[pixxers.livejournal.com]

*patpat* And there's really nothing to do when your eyes have glazed over from too much intarwebs.

Because you KNOW there's nothing on television. I mean, I'm watching the Liftetime channel - how sad and miserable is that?

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

At least you have plenty of channels to choose from (my guess). I've got... 5! And they are all crappy open brasilian channels, with absolutely nothing worthwhile to watch.

[pixxers.livejournal.com]

Yes, I really do. I just flipped past some Mexican wrestling, too. It's good background noise, if nothing else.

/sympthy

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

Maybe i'll just go to bed and hope my dreams are entertaining. :-)

[roguejournal.livejournal.com]

it sucks we couldn't meet today..after all the stories about raping and mugging in the streets quite near my house, i became a bit paranoid and i just refuse to walk alone in the streets late at night!!!!
but tomorrow we will have fun!!!!!!

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

Me liga quando voce chegar em casa. Nao vou mais no Brasiliano entao vamos ficar por aqui, ok? Ou entao dou um jeito de ir na sua casa, e do meu irmao ir me buscar depois.

[izzybees]

Too much internet makes me want to delete this journal.

Maybe that's my problem!

I am looking forward to seeing those photos.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

I find that I come to LJ with honest curiosity to catch up with friends... but then, after an hour or so, I'm bored, reading the same old same old, getting angsty, and sort of reading everything in a very automatic way. What keeps me coming back are the friends I made here.

As soon as my bro teaches me how to use the scanner, I'm uploading all of them! I think the photos will make it clear that I was gay from about the age of 6. :-)

[izzybees]

I understand how you feel about reading your friends page. I have said to other people that I don't like the interface, which reminds me of an rss feeder as opposed to the outside blogging world, where you're required to visit another person's page in order to catch up with them. That's the way I prefer to read on LJ, by visiting the person's own space, because their design is an extension of their personality and it makes me feel like I'm experiencing them and not just a momentary blip on my friends page, but you can't do that with everyone or it will take ten times as long to catch up.

I come back because, although I communicate outside of LJ with a lot of people here and being away opens new avenues of communication, it's just so much easier to keep in touch with everyone at once, and I miss you guys when I'm not here. I periodically freak out about sharing too much, though, and retreat into my shell.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

I think the secret is to cut back, to the point where the experience is always interesting. One thing I'm learning to let go is this idea that you must know "everything" about "everyone" at all times. I think the big news in people's lives always reach you, regardless of how often you read their journal. It's more important to keep your interest in them fresh, rather than overdose on everyone's bloghorrea.

But, having said that, your journal is one of the few which I read everything, and suffer great withdrawal when it's not around. ;-)

[izzybees]

I have always had a problem with moderation. I am one of those all-or-nothing people, and it is a really difficult aspect of my personality to change. I have never expected to know everything about everyone, but have often felt like I need to tell all for some reason.

And I am hopelessly addicted to your journal, too.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

We need to start a Livejournal Anonymous...

[violentlyhappy.livejournal.com]

I'm sure Tete is excellent company, don't diss the Tete! :P

That picture idea of yours sounds really good, I'm not sure I have baby pictures from every year of my life, my family have never been big on cameras, I've got a little collage of them in a glas frame on the wall though, Basil forced me to do it because he has one.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

There are some years where I've only got one or two photos, and it's usually with other people in them. I'll have to play around with photoshop and get them all sorted out, but it should be fine in the end.

[http://users.livejournal.com/dejavu_/]

Good to hear you're in Brazil, queridão. Espero que tudo esteja bem... entre em contato quando estiver em São Paulo, vamos agitar uns bebericos. Cheers!

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

Ja passei por Sampa, fio! Onde voce estava quando deixei mensagems sobre baladas no D-edge? ;-)

Bom, fica pra proxima ok? Abraços.

[hunterjr.livejournal.com]

Open TV is SO waste of time... I'm sorry Kevin is not there with you :(
Anyway, when does anyone arrive?

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

My bro is staying overnight at his girlfriend. My mom arrived today, so she'll make me company. And Meire should be coming over tonight!

[hunterjr.livejournal.com]

You are in good company then :D

[amanda-mary.livejournal.com]

I don't know if, by looking at pictures of myself, I'd be able to differentiate between ages, say, 23 and 24, or 7 and 9. Still, I'm looking forward to seeing this photo timeline!

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

I'm looking forward to doing it. I think it will be interesting for LJ friends to learn a little more about where I'm coming from.

[dilvsy.livejournal.com]

yay! looking forward to seeing the pictures of you, throughout the years

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

I'm scanning them right now... it's kinda freaky to revisit so many memories at the same time.

[dilvsy.livejournal.com]

i really need to scan my england photos....
that shall be fun.

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

Do it! I'm curious to see them.

[dilvsy.livejournal.com]

maybe this weekend

[msanthropist.livejournal.com]

This post reminds me of the lyrics of one of my favorite songs...
"It's lonely and it's quiet...
(and the horse soldiers are coming. And I think it's time I strung my bow and cease my senseless runnin'...)
Recognize it? Elton John's "Indian Sunset"

[commonpeople.livejournal.com]

No, never heard that song! At first, I thought you might be referring to Kate Bush's "Toy Soldiers" (I think that's what it's called...)